[PERSONAL] A Letter for You

I met you, not a long time ago
But you already took my heart, stole
Gave you no permission to do so
Powerless, I did give you the whole

The spell you sang about, last time
Embed in me, deep inside my heart
I can’t control myself, unrestrained
Aware less, you take over my mind

You, such a blessing that sent to me
Calling me out from my desperate
Accompanying my sleepless nights
Whispering me those sweet phrases

The songs you always sang about
Now are whining over inside me
Thought me those melodious voices
You made me smile every single day

As the time passed, the love grows stronger
Gave me overflowing happiness
You gave me the best presents ever
The best twinkling red constellation

The way you were, when we’re together as one
Made my days, so precious, nothing could compare
Walking along the same way, with the same faith
Holding the same red lines that guide our path

The way you are, feels like something is missing
Those happy smiles from the bottom of your heart
I can’t find anymore, the cheerful eyes there
You are burying all the pains alone, I know

You are gone, I can’t find you anywhere
Slowly fading away from my sight
With all the heartbreaking things you hide
Lonely, no one share you their shoulders

Wanting to see your smiles once again
I’m here, hoping those miracles come
Even for thousand years, even more
I’ll keep believing, you’ll back smiling

I don’t want to hear anything bad
About you who are away from me
Getting crazy finding you again
Want to hold you, as you did to me

Why I met you is what I’m thinking
Feels like a stupid who is waiting
The raindrops in the dessert, alone
Keeping the broken hearted soul

Why I loved you is what I’m asking
Trying to find over that something
So I can see the bliss inside you
Once again, and for eternal time

I feel sorry, I have nothing to do so
Crying out my heart, the only thing I can do
I just can’t help my self to hold back the tears
I should be stronger to cheer you, though

Feeling useless, the five red stars whisper me
You are sincerely smiling there, I hope so
Even if just a lie, I might want believe
You are coming back here, let’s share your pains

Trying to get closer to you
And embrace you
Though you don’t know
I’m always there
I want to make you smile
At least we can cry together
Like the air we breathe
We are one, eternally

Always keep the faith, was what you always said
I do so, hoping you will do the same there
But dear, why should we separate our ways?
You know, together we’ll made it easier

Hope to the end, that we can be together
Once again, walking the same way red lines guide
Believe, that tomorrow will come again soon
The day that we twine our hands together







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For those who are asking:
--> You = Oppadeul, uri TVXQ. .
--> Me = My self and other Cassiopeia who feel the same way with me. .

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[SPAZZ] TVXQ! in Vivi Magazine April Edition

This is the pictures of TVXQ! in VIVI Magazine from the April edition. I wonder if they filmed the first picture together. *I hope so* I took the pictures from SYC. Thanks for sharing the pictures, SYC.


Uryaaaaaa~ *nosebleeding* They sure are so handsome. Thanks SYC for sharing.

credits : sharingyoochun.net

[SPAZZ] Jaejoong the "Orange" Hair Boy, His Real Birthday, Yunho's Birthday, and the Projects

Uryaaaaaaa~ (why do I always start my post with my strange scream? lol~) Nah~ Now it's time for SPAZZING! I want to share some photos of Jaejoong with his new hair. I got them from many sources (esp OneTVXQ, DBSKnights, SYC, etc. Thanks a lot for them). These are the photos. . . Enjoy~

Uwow~ How do you think about his hair now? Anyway, I don't think that this orange or yellow color matches him. He looks pale and older than his age. I prefer the black one in BOLERO and Heaven's Postman or the one in MIROTIC and 4th Live Tour The Secret Code Final in Tokyo Dome. He looks more handsome, I think. But whatever he is, I still adore him. >,< LOL~


Anyway, some of Koreans registered their birthday (or their children birthday) with the date that they want, not the real one. Such as Kim "XIAH" Junsu. Actually, his birthday was December 15th 1986. But his parents registered him on January 1st 1987. And so did Jaejoong (I mean Jaejoong's parents to be exact). As all of us know, Jaejoong is an adopted son in Kim Family. His biological family is Han. At first, the public only knew that his birthday was January 26th 1986. But then, his biological mother revealed that his real birthday was February 4th 1986. So it was two days ago. >,< So once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JAEJOONG!

Talking about birthday, today is Jung "U-KNOW" Yunho's birthday! Uryaaaaaaa~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY, LEADER-SSI! Wish you all the best! We'll believe in what you said before. We'll wait for you and the members to be together again. We'll always keep the faith!

Aaaaaah~ I also want to tell you something. Today on 8 PM KST on Twitter, Cassiopeia, Bigeast, and I-Cassie will make a project for Yunho's birthday. We'll trend #happybdayyoonho to be number 1! And also on last February 4th 2010, we also did TREND #alwayskeepthefaith and TVXQ on Twitter.

Twitter also gave the meaning for each trending and also for both #alwayskeepthefaith and TVXQ. But unfortunately, the pictures aren't ready now. Maybe I'll upload them later.

Uhm~ Maybe it's enough for now. I have to study now. Uwaaaaaaaaaa~ The KGSP 2010's announcement will come soon! Pray for my luck please. I want to get the scholarship. Pray and support me always. Thanks a lot. See you soon~ Annyeong~ <3

[PERSONAL] End of the Month

Uwaaaaa~ Today is the last day of January! Time sure goes so fast. The exams come closer and closer. Aigooo~ Could I go through them? Kyaaaaaa~ I want to finish and succeed them immediately. I want to create my own history! Teehee~

*sigh* January sure was a tiring month. Additional lesson, private lesson, school, and applying for a scholarship. They were tiring. But I tried to enjoy them. Aaaaa~ I remembered something to tell to you just now. There were many interesting stories in January.


----->>>>> FIRST STORY <<<<<----- br="">
Since long time ago, I'm interested to study overseas, especially in South Korea and Japan. But I don't have any chance yet. So I went to Jakarta, to the Japan Embassy and Republic of Korea Embassy. At January 4th, my cousin and I went to the embassies. When I arrived in Japan Embassy, I felt really nervous. My heart was beating so fast. The security system was very great! It was my first time to go through a bomb detector. Teeheee~ And in the Republic of Korea Embassy, the security system was less great than in Japan. But, I met someone handsome there. *blush* He was the one who gave me the information about Korean Government Scholarship Program 2010. I couldn't tell his name. It's secret. But I felt excited so much in both embassies. Aaaaaaaa~ Really want to get KGSP 2010. Aaamiiiin~

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----->>>>> SECOND STORY <<<<<----- br="">
Completing the requirements for KGSP 2010, I was really confused. Fortunately, there were many people who helped me a lot. My counselor teacher, my English teacher, my Principal, the Director of where I worked before, my senior (Mas Yuyung, Mba Syifa, etc), my friends, and also my family. Aaaaaa~ Almost forgot someone else. Mrs. Purwati and International College. I translated my documents for the application in International College. And I even almost stayed all night in Mrs. Purwati's house (fyi, Mrs. Purwati is my friend's mom and she is a notary). I disturbed them so much.

At first, I thought it would worked smoothly. But something funny happened. I already sent my application at Saturday, January 16th 2010 via POS. Then I checked it to POS, my application has arrived in the Republic of Korean Embassy. It was accepted by a security guard there. But when I checked it to Republic of Korean Embassy, MY APPLICATION HAS BEEN LOST! I cried so hard on my way home. Then I called the one in my first story (who gave me the information about KGSP 2010) and then I found a CHANCE once again! I could send the copy of my original documents which was disappeared. I felt relieved. Then I sent the copy and had my cousin to send it to the embassy. And when I called the embassy, the copy of my documents could be counted as the original ones since the original one disappeared accidentally. I hope it was a sign that I will be accepted in KGSP 2010. Aaamiiin~

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----->>>>> THIRD STORY <<<<<----- br="">
In order to avoid the possibility of not getting a university, I also tried to register in Universitas Gadjah Mada (UGM) and Universitas Indonesia (UI). Therefore, I had to transfer some money. Then I asked my father to transfer the money via a bank. Unfortunately, the teller in the bank didn't tell my father how to fill the slip in the right order as the other teller told my friend. So my father just filled it as usual. Sure I got the password to enter the universities website. BUT I COULDN'T REGISTER! Ggaaaahh~ It was stressing. The money was GONE! Then I had to re-transfer the money and asked my friend how to fill the slip in the right order. I hope it was a good sign for me (I hope I can get KGSP 2010). Aaamiiiin~

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Aaaaaa~ So tiring and stressful! But I could gone through them. And I hope I also can go through next month better than January. Aaaaaaa~ The announcement of KGSP 2010 is in February! They will announce the grantee's list around the middle of February or perhaps at February 25th 2010. Pray for me friends, please. I need your prays and supports. I also will face my National Examination in March. Ganbatte Kudasai! Jia you! Pray and support me always. >.<

[VIDEO] 260110dAprod Jae's Bday Gift

Uwaaaa~ *excited* This is my first fanmade video for TVXQ! Actually I made this video for my computer assignment. My teacher told me to make a video from pictures and/or videos by using Windows Movie Maker *oups~ branding~ LOL~*. At first, I was confused what I would make. But then someone came in my mind. KIM JAEJOONG! So I decided to make a video of him.

I was very nervous when making this video. Don't you want to know why? >.< It was because at first, I wanted to make a video that shows the hotness of JaeJoong. But then I canceled that because I was too blushed (shy) too make it. My heart was pounding and bursting. Teehee~

Nah~ the other reason I made a video of JaeJoong *besides the computer assignment* was because January 26th is his birthday (some sources say that his real birthday is February 4th, but I don't really care. I just wanted to celebrate it).

And here is the video. . .



260110dAprod Jae's Bday Gift

How was that friend? Is it good enough? Honestly, I don't really satisfied with this video because I can't operate Windows Movie Maker well. >.< So sorry for the inconvenient. Anyway, I made this video by cutting the opening of 3rd Asia Concert MIROTIC in Seoul, MIROTIC MV, Holding Back the Tears MV, and etc. I also put some pictures from internet in this video. =3

Talking about JaeJoong's birthday, I am also planning to send a postcard for him via AVEX (fyi, I don't send it yet. LOL~). Aigooo~ I really want to know his house address but I only have AVEX's address *somebody help me please?*

I also joint the project from OneTVXQ in Twitter. It was to make #happybdayJaeJoong to be a trending topic on January 26th 2010. But unfortunately, it only could reach the second spot in the Trending Topic's list. *sigh~*

But whatever! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAEJOONG-SSI! WISH YOU ALL THE BEST!

[PERSONAL] Introduction

This is my personal blog. I recently want to share my life’s story and my interest online, so i decided to start blogging. Since this is my personal blog, so please do not take advantages from my blog. And I also really sorry if there is something that hurt you.

And I remind you once again, this is a personal blog. So if I say something that may make a controversy or conflict among of you. Whatever I say here comes from my point of view.

If I have a chance, I will upload some pictures or videos. It could be about my idols, or myself, or anything else. >.<

My name is Dea Cipta Permatasari and I am from Indonesia, my beloved country. Indonesia is a beautiful archipelago that located in the south east of Malaysia and Thailand. It is located around the equator that makes my country has a tropic climate. That’s why I have a *fair skin* brown skin. =3

I was born on Purbalingga, July 4 1992. I am still young, right? Currently, I am a 3rd year student of a high school in my hometown. I will graduate from my high school in May 2010. And I really hope that I can continue my study in South Korea. I hope I can get the KGSP 2010.

I am a fussy person. But I may look so gloom at the first sight. Sometimes, people say that the way I look is arrogant. But when they know me later on, they usually will say that I am a cheerful person.

I really love my family and my friends. And also I really love 동방신기 (read: Dong Bang Shin Ki). It’s a famous boyband from South Korea. You can try to google it to find this OUTSTANDING boyband *who makes me nosebleeding all the time*. LOL~

I think that’s enough for today. I have to study. Aigooo~ The National Examination will be held around March 22nd 2010. I need your support and pray. I also applied in Korean Government Scholarship Program 2010 and they will announce the grantee’s list around February (it could be on February 25th 2010, but I don’t know about it exactly). I really hope that I can get it. Aaamiiin~

Nice to meet you. 반갑습니다~